You thought you knew

I know the best way of forgetting is NOT to talk about it anymore. Not even think about it.

But just how you tell me?

I know I have a wonderful guy of my own now, where there is no question on his character and where his heart is. But why the guy who is already in the past still haunting me ?

I guess where there is love involved, there will be hate. I love him more than he never knew. That is why when betrayal comes in one finds it hard to accept the fact that her love is being treated like bullshit and the most difficult part of this is to learned about how he two-timed you while he was sweet-talking about how he is going to spend the rest of his life with you. How much he loves you. How would he NOT betray you ever again. And in the meantime he goes on a vacation with the other woman and claiming that his very tan skin was from the after-work tanning session at sentosa. Who could be so stupid to believe in all these shit?

I know I have been going on this topic for years about how hopeless and how depressed was I when he betrayed me from time to time. I was the silly girl who believes that he will love me enough to resist all the temptations. But I was so wrong. I was so wrong.

I cannot hide the fact that it hurts. Even though it is already over. I guess I don't love him as much as i do in the past. The hurt just stays in the heart until one day .. I don't know when.