You thought you knew

I love being home.

Thursday: Went Malacca with college friends. Nice place.

Friday: Charmaine's Birthday celebration - steamboat dinner.

Saturday: Clubhouse at Mount Austin. Seafood dinner at Megah Ria.

I cannot believe how much I've spent on dining alone for the past few days! Please let me get fat please.

One more month to go before leaving my current job.. wanted to leave earlier but considering the money.. plus two public holidays. Better work till end of dec.

Happy sunday everyone.

Happy 10 Years Anniversary!!!

- Throughout all these years you guys were always there for me even though we are countries apart, and I cannot express how much I love you all - MUACKS

Well Im still updating after 6 entries. Good job to me for keeping this blog up.

And I just realise I have absolutely nothing to blog about. My life isn't as interesting as it seems.

Blogging about daily stuffs like ya I woke up ate something went to this that place chill out and sleep. Isn't it just plain boring? Just to remind yourself of what you did every single day. Im not trying to accuse people of people being boring but it does seem meaningless to me. For me blogging is for jotting down certain meaningful and memorable day or sudden thoughts that came to your mind to allow yourself to remember it from your blog 10 years down the road.

I think Im just a bitch.

I have a major problem trusting people now. I don't blame him for making me who I am today and to tell the truth, I become stronger than ever. Life is way too short to be speculating or to be insecure, and I’m just gonna take things as they come.

Its a gloomy thursday.. I hope its only the weather.

Been so long since I made lots of purchases.You know how shopping is the best therapy for girls. La Senza, Esprit & Toy'r'us. Even though most of stuffs I bought is for others but even so.. Its worth every single penny.

It is indeed a busy november. There are so many birthday parties to attend and the biggest event of all.. THE ANIMALS 10YRS ANNIVERSARY! I guess this week will be hell of a weekend.

My birthday is around the corner.. which means Im getting older & older.. well 23 is a nice age isn't it?

Still deciding over Australia or UK universities.. tough choice. Although I do prefer UK over Aussie but considering pounds over ringgit malaysia, its really hard to make decision on whatever you like best eh?

Still feeling bloody unwell.. Wonder is it dengue? Or the blood virus I got like a year ago?

Life is miserable.

How to survive on such a pathetic pay every month? I am not even paying my own bills nor do I need to pay the car installment and such.. what am I working for exactly?

Amazing huh?

Location - Bert House
6:49PM

Going over to perling for dinner. Its rongkang and jiashin's birthday.

I am still sick.. how to eat seafood like that?

Ah fuck it.

I know the best way of forgetting is NOT to talk about it anymore. Not even think about it.

But just how you tell me?

I know I have a wonderful guy of my own now, where there is no question on his character and where his heart is. But why the guy who is already in the past still haunting me ?

I guess where there is love involved, there will be hate. I love him more than he never knew. That is why when betrayal comes in one finds it hard to accept the fact that her love is being treated like bullshit and the most difficult part of this is to learned about how he two-timed you while he was sweet-talking about how he is going to spend the rest of his life with you. How much he loves you. How would he NOT betray you ever again. And in the meantime he goes on a vacation with the other woman and claiming that his very tan skin was from the after-work tanning session at sentosa. Who could be so stupid to believe in all these shit?

I know I have been going on this topic for years about how hopeless and how depressed was I when he betrayed me from time to time. I was the silly girl who believes that he will love me enough to resist all the temptations. But I was so wrong. I was so wrong.

I cannot hide the fact that it hurts. Even though it is already over. I guess I don't love him as much as i do in the past. The hurt just stays in the heart until one day .. I don't know when.

of blogging.. Yeah. This is the N number of times i have tried to blog(with several blog account under my name).

I am not too sure myself why would I start a blog when I know I would abandon it like..2 days later?

Just had 2 meetings this morning and yet to have any breakfast, I guess i'll be dying of malnutrition soon.

Meeting the guys for lunch now.

Laters.